Me and My Eureka Moments

"Why do you want to go to heaven?" This question changed my whole perspective. It made an impact on the way I see things.  I can think of three major reasons to go to heaven. I do not want to go to hell.  Well this was my reason. I was so scared of going to hell so I thought I will do whatever it takes to go to heaven. But if you deep dive into this reason, the  major focus here is ME . 'I'  do not want to get hurt. I stands tall here.      I want to go to heaven.  This would have been my second best answer. I love the description of heaven so much and would love to see all the beautiful things and enjoy the "happily forever" life. But if you take a deep dive again, the  major focus here is ME again. 'I' stands equally tall here. I want to be with God. If this is the answer, well.. heaven and hell does not matter at all. Heaven is just a gift and hell merely a punishment. But what I see, is GOD and not the gifts or the punishment he gives...

I was praying one day for a blessing that I needed very badly. I was so depressed and I couldn't stop crying while praying. I felt that my heart was so heavy and I couldn't bear it anymore. That is when a verse popped out from nowhere into my mind.. Now faith is confidence in what we hope for  and assurance about what we do not see. -  Hebrews 11:1 I started thinking about that verse. I have already asked God for this blessing. I thought if I had faith would I be crying now?? Hmmmmm.... NOPE... It was like the blessing is waiting for me in my timeline. I just need to reach there in order to receive it.  Now read the verse again stressing on the CAPS.. Faith is CONFIDENCE in what we HOPE for and ASSURANCE about what we DO NOT SEE . "DO NOT SEE" is what we couldn't accept. We have money in the bank. But we also have a passbook to see how much money is there in the bank. Hence we are happy because WE SEE the statement although we do not see the actual mo...